ckzation

Oh well,today, i went out with her and a friend of ours. then we walked home, i can felt the awkwardness between, haha, guess,short hair is really a factor. i can say she isn't the one colouring my life anymore. i colour my own life, i choose what i want to do. but just now, i have to say, i thought maybe we could be friends, but then the chat at the staircase, it was no longer like it used to, from private conversation, to just casual superficial topic. Is hair the problem? if it is, then i guess the choice to give up was not wrong then. if a hairstyle is such an important factor its,just stupid. but that chocolate, it sort of symbolized something, something we used to had... shouldn't have taken it. shouldn't have get it in my life. guess,i got to just return it, return a gift, return everything... i duno...whether if i can do it...