All Too Well
I walked through the door with you, the air was cold,
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow.
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house,
And you still got it in your drawer even now.

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze.
We're singing in the car, getting lost Upstate.
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place,
And I can picture it after all these days.

And I know it's long gone,
And that magic's not here no more,
And I might be okay,
But I'm not fine at all.

'Cause there we are again on that little town street.
You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me.
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well.

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red.
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed
And your mother's telling stories about you on a tee ball team
You tell me 'bout your past, thinking your future was me.

And I know it's long gone
And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to...

'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night.
We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah.

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much,
And maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up.
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well.

Hey, you call me up again just to break me like a promise.
So casually cruel in the name of being honest.
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all... too well.

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well


Heard this at the recent 'RED' concert,
she said something like this before the song.
"sometimes, in love,
the bad memories comes back to haunt you,
but, sometimes the great memories is the one that come to haunt you."
and to her,
this was a combination
of the haunting good and bad memories
that she knows too well...

ok, its reaching one year since we broke up,
if i were to say,
i didn't think of you,
i didn't thought of getting you back,
i didn't had the urge to call you,
i would be lying.
However, i stop myself at each moment.
At first, i thought to myself,
there is no point in going back to a relationship which didn't work,
cause there will be family factors we can't change.
Now, the reason has changed,
it has become,
that you will have a better life being with someone else...
So, its time to move on...

Leading this stress full life

Most adults always say,
what could a kid be stress about?
Well, for me,
i really beg to differ.
After talking to some people in life,
it turns out that some kids really do have stuff to stress about.
It may start out as simple as not being able to get a new toy,
but as some parents do not see it,
it slowly evolve into,
not being able to support their kids thru higher education.
Well, so i say,
all kids grows up,
but some, earlier than others.
Some naturally,
while others are forced by situation.
Guess, it does make oneself strong and more determine.
A person can't choose what in his life,
he can only choose what he is going to do about it.

Moving on,
2014,
its time to put down,
all the things i don't need to stress about,
all the things others should start worrying about,
all the responsibilities that i do not need to carry
After 19/1/14,
more self development,
more focus,
more self improvement.
Less worrying,
Less thinking of things that has pass,
Less of what is not important.

Looking at the future,
the kitchen,
the people,
the laughter,
the effort i would need to put in.

2014,
year of focus.