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i don't know,  its like 9mths together, why do we like argue more than ever? is it true what they say? as the relationship goes on, the two people will get more comfortable with each other till they take each other for granted? its a habit i guess? that i just can't sit still, i have to be doing something, and it has to be something i like, if not, i will just get bored. However, sometimes i get bounded by duties, some things that require me to attend  which even i have to abide to it. it was easier when i was single, cause its like,  all i need to do is to adjust my own schedule, but now, i'm no longer just by myself, it kinda harder to make plans? guess its just that i still sucks at being in a relationship? cause like,  i'm still young, i wanna go out there, i wanna try stuff, i don't wanna be asking myself, "why didn't i tried this when i was younger?" we all have to grow up, but then, for no...

guess, i got much to work on, i tend to overlook the small things, got to be more attentive to stuff between us sorry...

First day of HK trip, first post of jun. well, its been awhile~ :P many things has happen, one of the things that need to be mention is... i went to the harry potter exhibit with my girlfriend! :D hehe! best experience ever :D time really past by fast, it has been already 5month together, and like in 2weeks plus, it will be 6months, all i can say is, i'm looking forward to it, cause, she has somehow become a part of my life :P hehe, so this hk trip, i deem it as a challenge i guess? cause two weeks apart, can we stand up to this challenge? i'm hoping can, cause i really want it to be >_< hoping real hard! so when will i blog again? i don't know, but hope, it will be good news :P

(this was written awhile ago!!) Woah~ today was an unexpected day :P managed to spend time with my doki today! HAPPY~ :P then a sudden chilling session with Andy, Shaun and special guest, Joey haha! seems like old times~ well, everyone is going their own way now experience different things. haha, sent andy and joey home first, then had a short chat with shaun, all the what if, would you questions funny answers that makes the night enjoyable so i was thinking of writing down all the funny things that happen when i am a teenager :P 13: -told a couple of friends i had a crush on my classmate, then they told her best friend, had the most awkward conversation in my life,haha! -knew andy cause he was a transfer student,haha! -first NP training left me ' immobilize ' on my bed, joint and muscle hurts! 14: -like to send messages with friends to someone else the lamest part is that the messages will form one message, usually ...

WOOO~ :P two more days to 4months! :D exciting :P well, thou little friction has started to surface, but then, its impossible to not have these once in awhile? like couples do bicker? but lets hope we will always reach an agreement every time >_< i really have to say, sorry for not having time for you, esp when school start >_< cause now like, i'm juggling work, school, commitment and you :P but of course :P i enjoy the you part the most :P gotta need a dose of you in my life at least once a day it really pushes me to do better >_< lets hold our hands and slowly move forward, a step at a time, supporting each other ok? :P P.S sorry for not being a good enough guy for you, but i'm learning, so allow me to learn with you, by my side? :P hehe

am i...that untrustworthy? sometimes, i really don't know what to do i'm always open to everything but i won't know if you don't say. don't know what i can do anymore shouldn't being together, means sharing everything they feel? well, maybe it just my wishful thinking i guess, i'm just a joker, joker don't have feelings, we are there, when you need a joke, need to laugh, joker are not trustworthy, so don't tell them your feelings, cause all they do, is laugh at you.

don't know, exam tomorrow, but not worried at all... ARGH! worried even for myself! sometimes, i feel i'm not being a good bf, like sometimes i seem to look past your feelings, so i think, i will try to care more for you ok? :P i will try my best! :D

guess i over read, haix, sensitive over the whole issue now, scared i guess? i don't know...

actually, thinking bout it, who am i to make a request? should just be content with what i have and just enjoy it :) things always turns out badly when i ask for more, should just stay the way it is :)

Happy Valentine Day... feel like watching a movie... feel like meeting you... why? why why why? why does it hurt so much today? maybe i'm just putting in too much feeling into this is it too much to want something? been a rough day~ but learnt alot of thing today :) but one most important thing, content :) this is one thing i need to learn from you :) sorry i'm such a hard person to be with, i will try to change to be better :) LASTLY! Miss Sunshine, thanks for brighting up my life, accepting all my flaws and bad child like personality :P and sometimes i do ignore accidentally, but you just treat it like it didn't happen >_< understanding, cute and pretty~ the list just goes on~ :P i know things are tough, and i'm a weirdo :P but always remember to smile :) cause its nice :) Hoped, you enjoyed your V'day as much as i did :)

well, second post of the year if i'm not wrong :P well, 2012, its ok i guess? work is ok, life is ok? oh well~ coming to the end of the sem 2.2 already soon i will be year 3 already :P poly life is just, fast~ 2 more days to us being one month together :P but it seems like we been together for sooo much longer :P thou we spend quite long time together, but all the times we spend together, just don't seem enough... i don't deny, there are problems happening around us, even my mum is saying we should just stay as friends but... i don't know, kinda lost in a sense... imagine a situation where we can't even be friends? don't even dare to think about, but ain't gonna just run away, gonna stay till the end. sticking to the principle, if i break this, i would really not recognize myself anymore

loving someone is the same as giving someone the ability to lift your spirit to cloud nine for the simplest things or the ability to fire a gun in your heart, at your heart

Ok,Super long never update this blog already :P well, last time i updated was like last year's nov 3rd, so firstly, WELCOME TO 2012! :D yup! its a new year already :) and gonna be 19 already :P ok, first thing first, updates~ finally got onto the new phase of my life, a new her :) a 'nice' her :P well, actually never expected to be together with her, she always seems so... out of my league, haha! but things happen and the special date 12/1/2012 was set :) yeah~ she is, different from the old her, she is everything i wanted, dependent and independent, smart, funny, and cute :) i don't feel awkward around her, we (or at least me :p) feel comfortable :P and she accept me for who i am! :D the most comfortable relationship i had ever been in >_< hehe~ what will be, i don't know, but for now, i'm happy :P