ckzation

well,not sure of what is happening to me, lack of sleep,others or has the power has gotten to me? lack of sleep: guess slping at wee hours every nite does has it toll on the body, no energy to do anything,restless and bad mood, some of the few things i'm havin now... argh! The power: alwasys been afraid of this, after seeing how power can make a person lose friends, its one thing i always tell myself to avoid, its like,the reason we learn from others mistake, to not take the same path of destruction they had did. but now,after being in two exco, and forgotten about the 'blindness' brings, its may be happening to me rite now, bt its not too late, gotten balance myself! others: well,been thinking bout lots of things, my life,my future and mayb the 'wants'. -first,my life. well,this isn't reall wat i thought 18yrs old would be like, had always thought, by now,i would be financially stable, but look at me now,toys,all the things i dun nid. what is this?! and also,be...

the war has been started, a revolution is waiting to start! is this the calling i been waiting? always sitting,waiting and wishing... seems lyk public speaking is ok for me now, but now is has boil down to one to one conversation, am i up for the game? i nid more practice! haha! i might be heading down a path of destruction, but for now, everything seems worth it!

ARGH! why am i so weak?! can take up,can't let go! DAMN IT! ARGH!being happy is the most impt. different people require different path in life if i may work for u, does not mean it may work for others, so,i decided,advice for my life, take from only myself.

well,guess,you won, well,nt really angry, but more of disappointment... guess u love a person how long, it takes the same time to get over it but guess i was hoping for something lyk this to happen haha, guess i should really take a step forward, i'm capable of making my life a colourful one! i admit,i do need someone, but i think, i'm more thn capable of making my life a great one! :D haha! i mayb think that i be better off if i had chosen differently, but whn i hav does thoughts, i tell myself, what would i had miss out if i had? thn i answer myself, a lot :) guess life is still gonna go on a memory is a memory, its the past, a place i'm not in anymore, i'm in the present, moving into the future! :D