An impromptu update bout life

As of what i know,
my last post is at the start of this year :)
As usual,
a lot has happen,
bout to ord,
uni bout to start,
and getting closer to 'this girl' :P
well,
after reading the update in jan,
i am glad to have overcome the trust issue i always had in relationships :)
however, i won't say things are just gonna go smoothly just yet~
turns out adult life is even worst than when i was young~
all these new problems on top of the old~
haix~
just make me realize,
maybe this is why people used to say it feels good to be a kid or to be young~

ANYWAY~
like i always feel,
there is always two side to a coin :)
when there is bad thing~
there is a good side :)
adulthood isn't without it perks~ :D
staycation, dates, dreams and goals dun seem so far right now~
like a post on 9gag,
the year 2000 is as far as the year 2030 right now :)
so in 2030,
i will be 37,
where will i be?
i hope its with you >_^
with the dreams we made,
and goals we set~
achieved and striving for higher ones :P
so yeah, if i am reading this again,
you have already chatted for half a year and dated for 5months :)
so go strong!
hope the next time you read this is cause you have written the future together :)

 P.S Have you found my blog yet? :) still waiting~ :P

2015

Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha...
so much for relationship after uni,
so, I guess it serves me right
to have all these problems
in my mind right now.
so end of 2014,
I am going out with this girl
she is perfect, in every way.
except one.
she had one thing I had always been avoiding.
she is popular.
been hiding from this after sec school.
so how now?
to accept it?
to leave now?
After accepting the fact that,
I am not gonna be in a relationship forever,
these things that's happen is~
not really helping me changing my view...
me right now,
just wish,
you could answer all my qus,
scold me,
even argue with me,
at least dispel the doubts in me.
I have accepted the fact,
everyone leaves,
tell me,
convinces me!
let me know no matter what you won't leave.
dun just say...
you have feelings for me,
I can leave If I want...
I need more than that...
and tonight,
definitely didn't help,
knowing that you accept his  request...
knowing only now
you are chatting on fb with him
And
knowing you actually accepted it.
my heart sank.
its just, I just feel like digging it out right now
at least, the cut wound
won't hurt as much as my heart right now...
guess...
maybe i am taking words too seriously,
maybe I should slow down showing my heart