2015

Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha...
so much for relationship after uni,
so, I guess it serves me right
to have all these problems
in my mind right now.
so end of 2014,
I am going out with this girl
she is perfect, in every way.
except one.
she had one thing I had always been avoiding.
she is popular.
been hiding from this after sec school.
so how now?
to accept it?
to leave now?
After accepting the fact that,
I am not gonna be in a relationship forever,
these things that's happen is~
not really helping me changing my view...
me right now,
just wish,
you could answer all my qus,
scold me,
even argue with me,
at least dispel the doubts in me.
I have accepted the fact,
everyone leaves,
tell me,
convinces me!
let me know no matter what you won't leave.
dun just say...
you have feelings for me,
I can leave If I want...
I need more than that...
and tonight,
definitely didn't help,
knowing that you accept his  request...
knowing only now
you are chatting on fb with him
And
knowing you actually accepted it.
my heart sank.
its just, I just feel like digging it out right now
at least, the cut wound
won't hurt as much as my heart right now...
guess...
maybe i am taking words too seriously,
maybe I should slow down showing my heart