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well,its been a long time 18 and still living my life... but then tonite, something happened well,i told her how i felt again... its ard two years since we ended it thou the first of the two years was still in the grey area, but the second yr,i was forgetting how it felt... bt who knew,V.day virus was getting to me, and it bugged me for ard 3 wks, so i decided,to let her know how i felt she was wanting any changes, yup,it was a no. but guess,i was more or less expecting it... took it like an 18 year old. if it is me whn i was 16? guess i would had cried,haha. but thn,guess mayb i was expecting an no? i duno,but one thing is for sure it has already been two years, its time i let this go. if not i will forever be stuck here. but there is one gd news, she thinks i was playing ard with her wit my confession, so mayb its an happy ending after all? i duno,guess its left to life to decide? so now,mentally single alrdy :) yup,duno i'm ready anot bt yeah,at least thats one step taken :)

well,its lyk last wk now, got lyk 3 assignment to hand up, 1 exam to attend, 1 assignment is more or less done 2 haven't even started! how am i suppose to get ready for the exam?! feeling tired almost everyday tink i should really slp earlier instead of doing things that are not that impt. ARGH!,juz can't seems to find the motivation the rush that i nid. damn it

well,thought that the first sem of poly sucks who knew the second sem would be so screwed up. its like 6months of work cramped into 5 months, plus a not so enthusiastic attitude of mine in this sem its not really working out for me! wtf,and they said this years gonna be better for me! hopefully its after CNY, but then,i no longer bear hope or it would be the same feeling i'm gonna get again from the forecast of the horoscope. a lot of essays to write, a lot of research to do,wtf! common test tmr, WHY WHY?!why must all the impt things be in this 2 mths?! ARGH!!

well,everything seems to be back to normal... haha, but then i'm still the same i guess, sometimes a loner sometimes a crazy guy. but then,this is me :D thou it has juz been 17 days in this new year,A LOT of things has happen somethings being settled, some friends going away... well,i really duno wat this year is gonna bring in for me, its lyk a year of surprises, but then i duno whether they are good or bad... a year older,another benchmark reached... 18,i been waiting for this age to come,but then, more freedom is also equal to more responsibility duno wat this year hold for me, but i hope it get better..

its been awhile... the last post i wrote was lyk 2 wks ago? haha,well time really pass fast for 2010 arh? some things in life has happen, got selected to be in HMS society exco, well,a dream come true?or a nightmare in disguise? oh well,i chose this path,so... i will juz hav to walk down it, and enjoy every bit of it thn :D just came back aikido camp today, it made me feel that,with friends... i'm really...blessed. doing things together, even if its random,even if its funny,even if it means losing face, its worth it :) saw a friend's blog post today, well,a girlfriend, haha!its also a thought in my mind currently... to me,relationship=commitment, tried to get more other commitments... ...to forget the one i failed to do well in well,so now here i am, with all the other commitments, and wishing i have one more... oh my god,guess i have to clone myself alrdy...

well,another time i gonna post, well,any phrase of life i'm going throu well,its new challenges in life again... friendship,its something i had alrdy lost faith in, cus its impossible to actually make friend with everyone and being nice,its hard, cus u try to find things and time to help friends, but they dun really help u,so? end up u lose friends, so?should i go on to help them, haix,try to be more friendly in poly but it turns out,having a few gd friends suit me better, but now they are in different poly, wat should i do? leave the ppl who are making me lose friends? wat should i do?

HOLIDAY AFTER ONE WEEK OF SCHOOL! haha,well,its true :) well,frist wk of sch was still ok :) LAC was great STC was great too, haha! well,two campfire,same same but different :) LAC,the dance by Vongogo was funny,and fun dance by Vongove was cool~ haha! STC,i can say,i was really pushed to the limit, lack of materials,no song leaders, to having a great time,and getting recognition by the TO of the sch in charge of the camp haha! tmr there sch,meeting and study... 'O's are coming to an end... random thoughts in mind.... my heart...did i really gotten it back? so am i really able to give it out? i tink i'm gonna do wat i told my cadets at STC, 'Some things in life,dun tink so much,just do' some frm today,i'm gonna start my messages to lamb :) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ dear lamb, hi,i know,this may come as a surprise to you, haha,dun worry,it is also to me. mayb i nvr thought of...