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(this was written awhile ago!!) Woah~ today was an unexpected day :P managed to spend time with my doki today! HAPPY~ :P then a sudden chilling session with Andy, Shaun and special guest, Joey haha! seems like old times~ well, everyone is going their own way now experience different things. haha, sent andy and joey home first, then had a short chat with shaun, all the what if, would you questions funny answers that makes the night enjoyable so i was thinking of writing down all the funny things that happen when i am a teenager :P 13: -told a couple of friends i had a crush on my classmate, then they told her best friend, had the most awkward conversation in my life,haha! -knew andy cause he was a transfer student,haha! -first NP training left me ' immobilize ' on my bed, joint and muscle hurts! 14: -like to send messages with friends to someone else the lamest part is that the messages will form one message, usually ...

WOOO~ :P two more days to 4months! :D exciting :P well, thou little friction has started to surface, but then, its impossible to not have these once in awhile? like couples do bicker? but lets hope we will always reach an agreement every time >_< i really have to say, sorry for not having time for you, esp when school start >_< cause now like, i'm juggling work, school, commitment and you :P but of course :P i enjoy the you part the most :P gotta need a dose of you in my life at least once a day it really pushes me to do better >_< lets hold our hands and slowly move forward, a step at a time, supporting each other ok? :P P.S sorry for not being a good enough guy for you, but i'm learning, so allow me to learn with you, by my side? :P hehe

am i...that untrustworthy? sometimes, i really don't know what to do i'm always open to everything but i won't know if you don't say. don't know what i can do anymore shouldn't being together, means sharing everything they feel? well, maybe it just my wishful thinking i guess, i'm just a joker, joker don't have feelings, we are there, when you need a joke, need to laugh, joker are not trustworthy, so don't tell them your feelings, cause all they do, is laugh at you.

don't know, exam tomorrow, but not worried at all... ARGH! worried even for myself! sometimes, i feel i'm not being a good bf, like sometimes i seem to look past your feelings, so i think, i will try to care more for you ok? :P i will try my best! :D

guess i over read, haix, sensitive over the whole issue now, scared i guess? i don't know...

actually, thinking bout it, who am i to make a request? should just be content with what i have and just enjoy it :) things always turns out badly when i ask for more, should just stay the way it is :)

Happy Valentine Day... feel like watching a movie... feel like meeting you... why? why why why? why does it hurt so much today? maybe i'm just putting in too much feeling into this is it too much to want something? been a rough day~ but learnt alot of thing today :) but one most important thing, content :) this is one thing i need to learn from you :) sorry i'm such a hard person to be with, i will try to change to be better :) LASTLY! Miss Sunshine, thanks for brighting up my life, accepting all my flaws and bad child like personality :P and sometimes i do ignore accidentally, but you just treat it like it didn't happen >_< understanding, cute and pretty~ the list just goes on~ :P i know things are tough, and i'm a weirdo :P but always remember to smile :) cause its nice :) Hoped, you enjoyed your V'day as much as i did :)