ok,juz now dat post was a fake,well,now dat i hav reach my goal of know wats botherin hermi finally get to know wat botherin her,i want to say,all the tings i said are fake,its lyk someting to get u to speak up,if lyk i hurt u,i'm sry,i'm willin to make it up to u in any way available,juz dun be angry wit me,cus if i juz ask u,u won't tell,so now,let me know ...i want to be there 4 u

haha,a meaningful day for me 2day,haha,day of singlehood,now,life is juz bout me and me alone,and friends of course,haha,but i will still ask qus bout relationship,cus it benefit me alot,haha,well,since i'm single,well,its only rite to look at other gals,and if can find another gf,but hard la,given my 'style' hard la,haha,well,welcoem guys and gals to ask me out,haha,but may hav work.haha

haha,tinkin alot for the past few days,haha,well,when i'm emo,i tink i bcome a dangerous person,haha,tink all sort of dumb stuff,haha,but actully,i dun dare to do all those,nxt time u see me,ask me y,i will tell u,haha,well,actually i tink tis few wk,i 'm really gettin to know her more thn those time whn we are together,she tink she worry for me won't help me wit my problem,but it does,even the fact she ask if there is anyting botherin me,i feel better already...her presense help me in doin ting better,cus i feel lyk happier wit her around...i lyk to look at her when i hav the chance,cus lyk i get tis happines when i look at her,duno y,but feel happy,haha,hope so is she,haha

not goin to tok bout my day 2day,kinda boring,so goin to write bout someting i was tinkin of 2day....name,a term for someone,but then sometime,we dun really call others by their really name,we call them other names or special term...i hav some,but then there was tis one which i was really fond of,it was her who call me dat special term,meant alot to me,mayb cus it was my first relationship,and first time she really meant it when she used it,i used the same term for her 2,but as time went by,relationship got strain,found dat only i usin it,then till the day dat the relationship was finish,it all ended there,got bck as friends,got to know dat she dun really use the term for any guys,but mayb i should forget it s it won't hurt so much,cus she used it for other guys,for fun or for real,i duno,but then one ting for sure,i dun want to spoilt her fun,spoilt her fun once durin the relationship,but different matter,but similar in ways..............tinkin of her all the time,remembered wat she said frm last time till now,but then now,juz duno,if i'm juz a friend or someting higher in status,lol,but then feel i'm stuck halfway.............duno if i should post tis out,so goin to leave it out for one day,tmr nite,i juz goin to transfer it to my unpublish posts........another matter,actually,i feel,i'm should really leave her,cus i'm not really someone who anyone would want asa bf,i'm not handsome,quite poor,attitude problem,dun communicate well,may forgot to to gf when in conversation wit friends,easily jealous,control freak......thought of juz leave the world,but feel it is unfair for my parents,and i should not control how long i live,but somtime,i wish,there is a corner in tis world i can escape to,but it juz seems,dat its impossible....so strugglin to stay alive,but its a war i must fight,changin myself is one ting,but then am i juz changin the outside of me rather then the inside,i duno,mayb only she can tell,life is not a stage,but a chore

did not blog for these few day,cus got alot of SL work to do,so sian,haix,thought it would be a great tingto join after th camp,but haix...yesterday went to prom nite to help out,it turn out to be a grest nite for me,but dun want to write bout it,hehe....haix,havin alot of stress nowaday,missed 2day AGM meetin cus of work,but then its not lyk i want to one rite,kena scolded cus i promised i would go,know its my fault,but then its not lyk i want one rite...haix,then got other tings in mind 2,haha,got improvement in some stuff in life,but duno,if it is the real me,lyk it but..duno,i'm happy bout the change but duno if it is still me,kinda caught in a two way street,duno how she feels or lyk,should it be the left or rite turn....i really duno....but still happy bout the state we are in now ;)

erm...2day i tnk i goin to spend time here,on my blog,haha,2day duno if it a negative day,the whole time i was tinkin negetivly durin sch time,haha,no mood study....haha,sry but not my usual self till a extent,i'm currently returnin to my young boy tinkin,childish,haha....life hav really teach me alot of stuff,sometime in life,we are told to remember the tings we learn in life,bt i learnt someting frm the tings i been throught,sometme dun remember everyting someone or a grp say...then practice selective hearin,listenin and rememberin together,haha,mayb ts will help :)

haha,2day went to sch to bring the coral pri student around,quite borin,think they same for them,haha,then 2day went to shirley birthday,very excitin,first time spend a birthday tis way,haha,gtg bb

hi everyone,my post after korea trip,not goin to uploaad more pic,cus upload until sian,haha,had a fun trip,lear alot of ting,now its back to singapore,and the leader stuf,study stuff is bck,so try my best to cope la,haha....really miss her durin the trip,haha,now is better than friends not as gd as bf,haha,tink its gd,at least we will get to know others better also before we go any farther??haha,anyway,juz glad at least i'm at this stage,haha...ok,signin off

these are some of the pic taken will ost some more tmr,cus 2day very tired,juz came bck singapore