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yesterday,i went to Escape wit karwong,darren,gerald,dickson and ashley,haha,was a fun day,nite to be in fact,haha,outside escape got alot of 'ghost and ghouls',haha took pic wit them,and here they are:

long time nvr blog,haha,went to the Student Leader camp the last 3 days.well,dun want to write everyting,cus u hav to experience to feel it,hha...anyway,here it goes: on the 29th,we went to sch to take the logistic and take bus to the jetty,but cus did not do well,so kena scoldin alot,haha,now tink back really learnt alot.we took the ferry to kus island first,took a few pic on the way...and took few pic on the way then we stopped at St.john island first,haha,took a few pic there 2,there was a wishin well and temple,so i went to wish and pray for dat my life will move smoother,and i guess it has,haha,anyway took some pic anyway,got some bank protection methods image,haha,i'm a geog student,so took them,haha then we reach St.island,then we chack in and hav lunch,of course got scoldin but also got help frm teachers in how to do the tings,then still got games and the there was tis visit to the beach,so took alot of pic,haha,goin to show them here :) haha,then lyk go back then went on w...

well,duno y,feel dat 2day is not a gd day for me,damn stress out,very f lo,so stress come home,my mum stuill nag me,so sian,sec 3 sucks,hope dun e leader anymore,damn sian,haix,sometime, wish juz can close my eyes and dun nid to open them again,but dun want to waste my life juz lyk dat,haix,guess juz hav to walk my life alone,cus someting in life,friends can only console but can't help...haix

worked quite late 2day,ut quite happy,cus got meetin in between,then she went,duno y but i juz can't pull myself away frm her,its lyk i juz know she is the one for me,haha,weird but she did tis test for me,which she did herself,and got one part say,i will hav 7 gf b4 i get married,and she was number 7!!!which means the last one,well,duno how much of its is true,but it has given me all the tings i nid to go on,i now try to be a someone,between a best friend and bf,not more not less,but of course,i want to go on to the latter on la,but then i juz want to observe her more,know her more,an know when to be there when she nid me :) suddenly knew it one nite,the relationship we had b4,the problem was dat i kept sayin i'm not gd enough,but nvr ask her about it,so tis time,i wish it will be more bout her!!!haha,now more obvious to know who i lyk,trust me,haha,gtg,tmr got meetin,haha can see her again,hha

nvr thought bein a sec 3 student would be so hard...always thought bein sec 3 i cna wear long pants,tis was the only ting i thought when i was in sec 2,nvr thought of the problems the stuff i got to go through,i got to say,some were happy,some were harsh,bein a sec 3 only sent me tinkin,can me,a teenager wit a mind of only a small kid,survive??ppl says life is harsh,but i beg for differ,i tink ppl are harsher,they are the ones who make life harsh...ppl are weird,u give then someting,they will ask for more,u dun give in,they dun lyk u,give in they will ask for more....hard to strike a balance...but to me,i feel,if others can do it,so can i...haix,feelin tensed up rite now,wantin to bang my head on the wall,multiple times!!!but i know i will hurt myself tis way,and the problems in my life is not worth for me to hurt myself....i only hav to say,my work life and my personal life is really stress and confusin....i guess tis is the price to pay in order to grow up....juz got one ting to say ...

2day,workin thw WHOLE day,now juz finish it,well,now i know,changin frm a friend to bf is hard,but changin frmbf to frined is even harder,experience it rite now,she cut her hair recently,duno wat others tink but i kinda lyk it..anyway,if i say,i hav lost all feelin for her,i'm liein,its hard to forget a gal lyk her,duno y every litle movement,sound or action she make juz catch my attention,duno y,find it hard to forget,but then sometime,i can't get wat she is hintin,so duno if i want to lyk go for her again...well,everyting after the SL first...workin wit her has been a great experience,serious and fun...haha,anyway,eyes closin soon...*yawn*...a funny fact,tis SL ting is more stressful than my EOY,haha

well,i feel lyk being a boyfriend,make a guy tink dat he is always not doin gd enough,so it will start a gap to appear,i feel tis way,duno wat others tink,feelin dat,difference really set ppl apart,it will cause misunderstanding easily,haix,unfortunately found tis out only till now,but till now still cannot get rid of this bad habit,haha,well,anyway,juz hope everyone gd luck in getin the heart of the one they lyk,gd luck,and hope can still be friends...wantin to msg her,but juz afraid lyk misunderstand her and lyk make her unhappy over someting she nid not be sad about...duno if she will read tis,anyway,now juz happily gettin past my life,haha