its been awhile...
the last post i wrote was lyk 2 wks ago?
haha,well time really pass fast for 2010 arh?
some things in life has happen,
got selected to be in HMS society exco,
well,a dream come true?or a nightmare in disguise?
oh well,i chose this path,so...
i will juz hav to walk down it,
and enjoy every bit of it thn :D
just came back aikido camp today,
it made me feel that,with friends...
i'm really...blessed.
doing things together,
even if its random,even if its funny,even if it means losing face,
its worth it :)
saw a friend's blog post today,
well,a girlfriend,
haha!its also a thought in my mind currently...
to me,relationship=commitment,
tried to get more other commitments...
...to forget the one i failed to do well in
well,so now here i am,
with all the other commitments,
and wishing i have one more...
oh my god,guess i have to clone myself alrdy...

well,another time i gonna post,
well,any phrase of life i'm going throu
well,its new challenges in life again...
friendship,its something i had alrdy lost faith in,
cus its impossible to actually make friend with everyone
and being nice,its hard,
cus u try to find things and time to help friends,
but they dun really help u,so?
end up u lose friends,
so?should i go on to help them,
haix,try to be more friendly in poly
but it turns out,having a few gd friends suit me better,
but now they are in different poly,
wat should i do?
leave the ppl who are making me lose friends?
wat should i do?

HOLIDAY AFTER ONE WEEK OF SCHOOL!
haha,well,its true :)
well,frist wk of sch was still ok :)
LAC was great
STC was great too,
haha!
well,two campfire,same same but different :)
LAC,the dance by Vongogo was funny,and fun
dance by Vongove was cool~
haha!
STC,i can say,i was really pushed to the limit,
lack of materials,no song leaders,
to having a great time,and getting recognition by the TO of the sch in charge of the camp
haha!
tmr there sch,meeting and study...
'O's are coming to an end...
random thoughts in mind....
my heart...did i really gotten it back?
so am i really able to give it out?
i tink i'm gonna do wat i told my cadets at STC,
'Some things in life,dun tink so much,just do'
some frm today,i'm gonna start my messages to lamb :)

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dear lamb,

hi,i know,this may come as a surprise to you,
haha,dun worry,it is also to me.
mayb i nvr thought of the day dat i would be liking you
actually,i know,
i'm not exactly your kind of guys u would go for...
but thn,i'm trying to change.
haha,but thn its dun seem to be really working for me thou :p
mayb cause i'm those people who are not easily motivated,
usually i get via two things,
one is that i'm really doing something i'm interested/confident
or,its by the one i like.
so if u say one thing,i will try my very best!really...
ok...i guess dats all for today? :)
gd nite,swit dreams...

well,its been some time since i posted,
well,life has really changed for me
new friends coming in to my life,
some...may be leaving...
tried new stuff too,
lyk cycling to east coast park,
dats was fun,haha.
tmr i'm going for a camp,
leadership adventure camp
its been so long since i been to one
as a participant,kinda looking forward
but thn scared at the same time,haix
guess i hav to do wat i always tell my friends
look at things with an open mind...

life has changed,
no longer thinking bout love
but responsibility,
and commitment...

ZZZ haha,turned out,the nxt day i didn't did the workout,
early in the morning i went to visit my grandma,
but i did practice the guitar thou :P
haha,thn the reason i didn't blog ytd was bcuc
i went for a slp over!!
so fun!!
haha,watch two movie
with sam,yufei,mac,melvin and siying
played 'game of life' and 'Cluedo'
wit melvin,mac,siying only
cus yu fei and sam left early thou,
but its cool,haha
thn went home only lyk in the morning,
saw the morning sky...
well,its something i missed watching for a long time...

things to do tmr:
workout
guitar mayb
aikido

well,not posting lately due to exam...
BUT NOW ITS OVER!!
holiday!power!
now gonna nid to lyk work and stuff,
and go out play!
gonna work out,
play guitar :)
its gonna wat i nid to do the whole holiday!!
so i'm gonna keep a list!

THINGS FOR NXT DAY:
workout-->situp(200) and arm(until CMI)
guitar-->are you gonna be my girl(2hrs)

yeah!plan for a better tmr!!

finally got enough of myself,
enough of the teasing,
enough of the random sarcasm
enough of me afraid of saying the wrong things,
so from now on,
i will tell the truth,
but thn if its needed,
i will tell lies,
but only if its needed...

haha,national today!
happy birthday Singapore!!
45th birthday alrdy,so fast....
i'm 17th this yr also,haha
well,1st semester in sch is coming to an end soon,
after the 2 exams,
nid to really work hard to those sia,
haix....
but thn after dat can relax!!
haha,well,did alot of new stuff this yr,
design stuff,taking photo the proper way.
being positive,is it gd?
i think so la,but being too positive,
haha,think it suck,
no temper,no nth,
is lyk a time bomb,
which u can nvr guess whn its gonna blow,
haix,slowly la,finding my style soon....

things to for the holiday:
exercise,study everyday!!hang out sometimes...

well,now i'm in sch,
and yup,i had been in sch for the whole wk.
aikido grading nxt sunday,its lyk exactly 1 wk away!
omg!it seems lyk so fast!
i haven't really remember all the words and everythings,
haix.....
well,presentation on tues,
will hav to work hard for it!!
chionging for work now!! :)

well,this is a new wk,
a Tuesday :)
well,this wk is a busy week for me,
two important presentation in a week
so like preparation is a bit rush as i didn't really fully used the time
so lyk yup,a bit rushing a lot,
but after today,its gonna be a bit more
relax,however,its not time to really slack thou,
having two major exam in sept,
haix,have to study frm the top....
haha,well,now is like being wit friends and everything
and attitude is abit weird thou,
speech and everything,
currently pushing things to work,
hope its true thou,
thn changing back during the holiday,haha!
well,gtg....
working hard!

haha!juz finish my Unicorn gundam!
but still haven't add the stickers
haha
abit lazy to do it thou
haha,hanging out wit joey and shaun and andy often tis mth
haha
fun,enjoyable and still fun
but thn i have been weird this few wks,
toking lyk a primitive man
haix!
hope i change slowly...

things fr the wk!
-work on assignments
-chiong for exam!
-work hard!
-save up :)

haha,suddenly wanted to blog today,
well,a lot of things happen today,
went to get my SPH scholarship,
thn rushed down to speech day training,
then went for dinner wit jia jun,jun hao and yi lin.
well,a lot changes are happening to me,
juz realized it a few days ago,
from an incident dat happen way back in life.
yup,i can't help to agree,
but thn changes do happen to people,
i got tired of being the nerdy me,
cus i believe,i could do better,
hang out,chill-ing,
these won't things i used to do,
but i do enjoy them now,
i feel i had seen the world,
i can't say its the best of me,
cus i feel i can still be better,
however,friends are there to not change,
but to advise and encourage friends to
either change for the better,
or to advise them from turning bad,
so hope my friends can help me wit it! :)
i believe only one poly friend know bout my blog,
so yeah....haha
haix,changes made me think back,
if u were still u,
i would be more than glad to get dat chocolate sundae wit u,
if u were still u,
i would go out wit u more often,
and hold yur hand the rite way,
if u were still u,
i would tell u,'yes,i said the usual gd nite stuff to u every nite in Korea'
if u were still u,
i would treat u more of a gal,thn juz a friend.
but now,haha,
friends is still better :)
panda was the thing of the past,
now,it time to get serious wit life,
and do something wit this life i hav,
support & reminder from family & friends+single hood+dream+desires=working hard in poly :)
life must go on,
i did forget memories,
but regret are always there :)

omg!didn't post on last friday,
guess i tink i must post once per wk,
dats should be enough.
haha,
well,its like normal sch day,lesson,project and presentation.
however,everyone is slowly showing who they are,
its like a total different class frm the first few weeks,
its slowly turning into the class i'm afraid of.
haix,there is a reason y guys and ladies are made differently,
cus if we are all the same,
a lot of ladies would had alrdy get a beating of their life,
omg!
can't stand it sia!
haix,
wat happen to all the nice ladies in my life?!
only know a few new one,
other thn dat,
all are the ladies with a stuck up attitude!
omg!
shit sia,people envy me,
but if u are in my class,
u would know the pain i'm in!
haix,but luckly,i have a family :)
a group of people who i can call mum,sis and bro,
a place i know i won't have to be face attitude problem gals,
omg!
i really nid to balance myself,
trying not be more guy-like,
cus,i can tell u,its a totally different me,
a me tdat no ladies would dare to approach... :)

once again,its has been a long time since i blogged,
haha,tmr is the first time i will be doing HMS ambassador duties,haha
excited and scared too,
will hav to know the other ambassador,
scary thou,cus other thn my friend and i are guys,
there rest are ladies!!omg!
i'm lyk scared la!
haha,but thn gotta juz try to adjust to this,
cus i would face this situation for another 2 yrs,
so yeah,haha.
btw,i aim to blog every friday!haha
haha!

its been a LONG time since i blogged,
haha!
damn long la,
well,poly is really busy,
assignment after assignments
work till like 2am everyday,
either dat or play game till 2am,haha!
a status report!
well,been to my CCA camp
a HMS dance event,
celebrated jason and shaun's birthday,
thn i tink nth big i guess....
but thn poly life is really different,
mayb changing clique soon,
haix,
tmr sch start again,
sian,tired,
hav to less lazy alrdy,
do work everyday,
slp early and start to exercise!
stay healthy and be fitter,
yeah,dats my target!
chiong arh!!

well,its been ages since i blog :)
so decided to blog today :)
well,it wasn't really a very great day for me,
had a lot of emo moments today,
so wasn't really happy at first,
but then after going for Aikido,
and literally sweat it all out,
feeling better alrdy :)
well,this wk a lot things happen,
got 'scandal' that a gal like me,
but it turn out to be fake :)
then, now its me liking someone,
haha,not really like la,
but i just feel she look pretty,
if i were to like every gal i find pretty,
then i love like a lot gals already,haha!
so like yeah :) ending here :)

its been a long time since i updated this died blog,
well,as usual,many stuff happen for this amount of time dat passed
duno whether there was any gd thing dat happen.lol.
well,poly life is not really lyk my type of life i guess,
or its dat i really can't do communication face to face to ladies,
wa,feel lyk dying alrdy!!
well,poly life was not as great as expected,
the guys and gal ratio is lyk the first thing dat shocked me
and that is enough to take me out alrdy la,
its lyk,i'm me!!
i'm not those who can lyk tok to gals
and dun get into trouble la,
sooner or later,
something will happen lo,
now its lyk,haix
alone....
sec sch life was lyk so gd lo,
friends are always there,
life was never without laughter,
no bad feeling wit anyone,
its lyk argh!!
can someone let me know a way to get everything better?
there are no undo button in life,
the are no replay button too,
guess i juz hav to change to fit into this society
so to the me now,goodbye...

well,
its next week will be the third week in poly,
well,still ok la,start to click i guess??
bt turning abit boring??
well,guess,apart from personal effort,
there is still some external force controlling us?
anyway,sometimes,
in life,i feel like i'm in a dark room,
a room where no one can get to me,
but then,the problem is,
its not that no one want to get to me,
its dat they can't!
they are stuck at the wall i built,
i duno y,
but but.....
argh,i duno wat to say,
juz hope i can remain a optimist ,
not a pessimist....

it has been a long time since i posted,
well,new environment,new frens and everything,
still not adjusted i guess,
well,being the kind of person who 'heats up' slow,
guess its gonna take a while for me to actually
find a clique and hang out often,
but one things for sure,
i will hav to be here for another 2 and ard 1/2 mths,
so i guess its better for me to leaern how to be
more open in a sense,
and be able to be high and funny.
but,being caught in a situtation like this,
where i'm lyk abit uncomfortable due to the ratio n class,
guess its gonna nid to take some time for me to adjust,
well,being the 'hang out more with guys' person,
its kinda hard for me to actually approach gals and tok normally,
so lyk,haix
only one word,persevere!!

haha,
today was a day to remember,
after a total of 2 training,
i went to Ngee Ann poly 'Dance4fun' competition
with other students in HMS,
haha,
well,we did our best,
but sadly,we didn't win anything.
however,i di had a great time,
and know a few frens :)
well,notice the changes happening ardy,
duno wat i'm saying,haha,
empty head now,
at this point of time,
confirm i should not drink redbull,
cus,it will hav dire consequences,haha!

well,it been a long time since i posted,

well,this is lyk my first post in poly

haha,well,

tinking of keeping a chinese blog

duno should i public it,

haha,juz a blog to write my stuff in chinese

as a practice for writing,

haha,well,poly life

its not as simple as i thought,

but not as harsh too,

but still nid effort lo,

seems lyk i gonna nid to put in more work somehow

juz make frens

and oso to understand wat the teachers says

haha

long time nvr use chinese,

so chinese a bit rusty :P

haha,well,will post soon,

i guess?? :)

well,duno y,
been having mixed feeling lately,
mayb its due to some stuff dat happen lately.
well,i know i should put this matter behind me
but thn,i duno y,
i juz can't...
its lyk after a while,
life will remind me of dat matter.
its something dat has ended,
something i should leave it in the past
but this few days,
i duno y,
its bugging me!!!
haix,cn't talk bout it,
cus it affect not only me
so lyk now,
juz hope poly come fast
thn let it make me forget bout the past
and onwards to the future...

haha
long time nvr post alrdy
blog has been died for lyk so long!!
haha
cn't say nth happen in this period
well,actually,ALOT OF THINGS HAPPEN!!
haha,
well,went out for a few times
wit different friends
haha,
well,not long ago juz had a chit chat session
wit andy shaun and joey
haha
until 3am!!!
haha
well,but it was fun
can't wait to hang out now!!
juz updated my cupboard recently!!
haha
watch out,cheng's gonna rock the house!!
lol,dun even know wat i'm saying,haha!!

haha
went out wit
jason,shaun and yi lin today.
haha,
went shopping,had dinner and movie!!
haha
well damn fun,espically after the movie
haha
laugh lyk shit man!!!
haha,thou we watch 'alice in wonderland',haha.
but thn oso had a lot of thoughts 2day
due to some matter dat happen 2day...

well,love is about having 2 person
who love and care both parties,
understand and also trust each other...
however i feel dat its not something everyone can do.
lyk me,i could not did it in the past,
but i feel its both parties,
if one party is caring and spend time with another
thn the other half can't be unreasonable
and expect dat party to be always with him/her rite??

duno la,haix,its so hard to say
wat is rite wat is wrong in a relationship,.
its said,'love is blind'
i think its the people in love which are blind,
to not see any bad points in their other half.
however it will soon be over,
thn,it will depends on whether if they could accept
their other half's bad points,
to determine if they can last....
haix,such a brain cell killing thing to do!!

well,finished the UG(12-14th march)
juz to find out dat,
there is alot of thing
i nid to consider carefully.
tink,its time i take life seriously
not to play arh,
however,attitude towards life,serious
personality,ok ok.
thn,argh!!damn sian......

finally found a way to post via hp!
Life has been nth,
But a daily routine to m,
Wake up,wash up,use comp/eat,sit,
watch tv,sometime work,friday go npcc training.↲
Nt much in life,
Some ppl may tink,
How some cn handle such life?
I duno too.
Losing touch wit life
Dying soon.
Nt me,bt my mental self.
More and more i get withdrawn,
The more of me the dark hole within suck me.
Soon the me u see,
Will juz be a hollow shell...

'Never Gonna Be Alone' by Nickelback,album:'Dark Horse'

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on,
If you ever feel like letting go,
I won't you fall...

Never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can,
I'm holding on with both hands,
'Coz forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet,
I've gotta let you know...

Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on,
If you ever feel like letting go,
I won't you fall...
When all hope is gone,
I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our

haha,
been wanting to post,but
juz kept forgetting
so wanted to post via hp
but duno y,juz can't
haha
well,nth much happen la.
during this period,
i...
-wanted to buy a everlast shoes,but dun hav my size,so goin to loook out for it
-went once wit library wit darren
-attended campcraft competition as a CI for the first time
-mayb hav others la,but forgotten :P

haha,well,goin to end here,
well,being the different me
i hope to be a better me
so trying to be more confident,
friendly,less of a jerk,and a nerd,haha
and going to put in more to everything i do!! :)
haha

well,living life nw
well,juz feel lyk
i have went back to the old world of mine
with juz me and me alone,
well,goin through everyting
dat i hav plan
for myself,
well,a bit bored,
but thn at least,
i'm moving on wit my life??
juz waiting for another chapter of my life
to unfold
so for now,
mayb i will juz stop moving??

haha
well,its been a long time since i posted
well,not much happen this week,
mon-went to work and everyting
tue-went to HTA to help out in the campcraft competition prep
wed-went to the movies wit shaun and ashley
thur-went to help out wit the campcraft competition prep
fri-went to training at punggol sec
haha,well,all the days are filled wit activities
mayb to ensure dat i dun waste my holiday??
haha
well,duno since when,
i did not want to waste my time in this world
mayb during the holidays??
haha
some ppl may be working,
for me,
its my passion for NPCC??
haha,
duno la
but still work frm time to time,
so still ok la
want to change job soon( if able :) )
well,tmr goin to sch to grab my bag
and oso work,haha
well,mayb juz goin to make myself busy wit alot of stuff
thn adjust again whn poly starts,
haha

well,alot of tings
are goin to happen,
the nxt wk for me is goin to be very pack
haix
still very absent-minded
haix
but well,gotta train myself some more
haix....

Well,
alot of thinqs has happen
In the past few days,haha.
19th jan was my birthday,
Haha
Spent the whole day with my family
Haha,it was simple,yet happy :)
20th jan,brought the sec 3 for dry shooting,
Well,its was...
Not really well-planned...
Haix,its a lesson 4 me thou,
Haha.
21th jan
Went to class bbq,
Haha
Had chat wit mac,si ying,guo wan and shaun,
Haha,we chatted the whole nite,haha.
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Well,after these 3 days,
I hav a lot of lesson and thoughts...
Well,i'm a veri frank guy,
Wat i think i say,
So i feel dat if u are offended by me,
Juz tell me,
cus i hav no intention of offending anyone,
So do let me know if i do.
And,one thing,
Mayb if u hav a problem,
Solve it,no use dwelling over it,
And dun run away frm it via means....
Face fear in the eyes and master it,
Thn u hav overcome yur problem.

haha,
so fast
'O' lvl was out alrdy
well,
L1R5,i got 16
L1B4,i got 12
so i kinda hit my target rite?
haha
well,frm nw on
it will be a new start over again :)
haha
this time,i will target
to work hard on my studies
and nth more
haha
well,
happy for myself,
frens,teacher,and parents :)

haha
tink my post is a bit late
haha,
alot of ppl has alrdy post about their thought of the past years
so i tink...
mayb i should do it too :)

2009:
well,it has been a rough year
'O' lvl,growing up,responsibility and alot of other things (dat i can't tink of rite now :P)
it has all cramp into 1 yr

-friendship
well,it has a twist to it,
haha
as we grow up,friendship requires new elements
well,lyk stating yur side
haha
well,not really sure of it rite now,bit not in the flow of friendship stuff rite now :)
but hav a few great friends left in the end :)
so no worries,i guess...

-Commitment
well,finally became a CI
haha
a dream came true?
however,i found out dat
this is not juz a dream dat
is easy to maintain
however,after i got the ranks
i will and nid to try my very best
for other kind of commitment
i dun tink i can rise to occasion yet
cus tink ask another gal to be stead
well,it got to wait for another feeling of a long relationship,haha
or unless...got gal confess to me!!
muhahahaha
but very hard la,
with my current lifestyles and everyting :)
student leaders,
well,not going to be harsh anymore
well,its their life and their Organisation
so i will guide only lo.
for my main commitment
i will try to folo the motto my senior gave me
'The test we must set for ourselves is not to march alone but to march in such a way that others will wish to join us' :)

-family
well,feel lyk last yr
did not really spent much time wit my family
so mayb this yr its gonna change :)
more time la :)

-myself
well,dun really lyk myself somehow
feel dat i can do better,
bit too slack,
no,toooooo slack alrdy
gonna buck up more
and not really confident enough
and not really open up
feel lyk a closed up box :P

2010:

-friendship
well,
try to make more frens ba
more wit my age grp and those not in my age grp
haha
and make frens
thn try be more open up to frens and everyting
more socialise in a sense
and only fren,nothing more :)

-Commitment
well,this yr,i will try to be a CI
dat my cadets can look up to
and be a better leader
be a balanced leaders in term of my soft skill
and a superb leader in my hard skills :)
other commitment....
well,i'll see la
see i really dat lucky ma :P

-family
spending more time
dat is confirm
treat my parents better
and everyting :)

-myself
be more gentlemen
be more courteous
be more friendly
be better at everything my frens lyk about me this yr :)