2day is the last day of the sec 1 induction,but after the sec 1 induction,i felt dat i had not done enough.lyk bein a leader,i tink i am not bein wit my team 4 long enough.cus tere was this time there was someting lyk a telematch,so my team was at a station,then i went to another station,but cus there was also another leader at my team so i tink i hav a empty slot to go chat.but i went to another station also cus my friend need my help in explainin to the ppl so go help.mayb dat was a reason,but after all,the game was not by me so mayb i should hav call the other ppl to help him,as there is 3 ppl in charge of the whole ting.but nvm,cus wat done is done le.and i tink me bein too talkactive is a bad ting,cus i tend to talk when other is talkin,dats wat i dun lyk about myself.but sometime being talkactive is gd,cus i can talk wait my friend when we are bored.so i felt i could done better,but no one is prefect,so i will try to learn from my mistake
2015
Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha... so much for relationship after uni, so, I guess it serves me right to have all these problems in my mind right now. so end of 2014, I am going out with this girl she is perfect, in every way. except one. she had one thing I had always been avoiding. she is popular. been hiding from this after sec school. so how now? to accept it? to leave now? After accepting the fact that, I am not gonna be in a relationship forever, these things that's happen is~ not really helping me changing my view... me right now, just wish, you could answer all my qus, scold me, even argue with me, at least dispel the doubts in me. I have accepted the fact, everyone leaves, tell me, convinces me! let me know no matter what you won't leave. dun just say... you have feelings for me, I can leave If I want... I need more than that... and tonight, definitely didn't help, knowing that yo...
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