i heard a story b4,and found it to be very meaningful,so i decide to share it 2day,it goes lyk tis:once,there was a person who had everyting,alot of money,a nice house,talent,he is gd lookin,and hav a great wife.but he is not happy,he had everyting a person will ever ask for,but he duno y he is unhappy.then one day,a angel ask him u want to be happy,he said yes.so the angel took everyting frm him.then after a few year,the angel came back and ask him,how was he doin,he say he is suffering,then the angel gave him back everyting,despite havin all the same ting,he felt happy.some ppl may heard a different version but ts version is wat i remember.some ppl get the idea of dat tis story want to get the idea of 'be content wit wat u hav' across,but i tink dat may be another idea that this story is gettin across,it is dat,if in life there is no bad tings dat happen,how do know dat the gd tings in life are gd?lyk if u nvr fail b4,how will u enjoy the feelin of havin gd grade?...

well,dun want to write ablout someting great that is happeing,as everyting i write it out,it will take a turn for the wors,so juz say there is soemting gd happenin in my life...YA!!!

got to go soon,juz to say i change the blog song,hope u all lyk it

soemtime it tink,its fine to hav ppl bein angry wit u,as it show they care for u,want u to change...help u grow...make u into a better person

hav a cold rite now,so not goin to say so much,well,juz want to say dat i am still tinkin bout it,it is a decision dat i must make myself,whether it is better to give up or to go on,it is up to me to decide,so i will make the decision once it get my thoughts though

well,2day is another day,slept in class for 1 hr but teacher nvr catch me for sleepin as i was waitin for class to start,ya...really duno who to choose,hmm...must take time...well gtg cus chatting wit thai friends,ya

2day i got someting to say,I DECIDED TO LET GO!!,means i will no longer so call in love wit her anymore,which means i hav lose some ting that is once important in my life,but then i gain to a certain type of freedom back,well,i tink i'm goin to enjoy tis freedom for a while...but as the past,it has been a great past,had alot of happy moments,but then did alot of mistake,but learned frm them,well,juz want to say thks to her...for helpin me grow,and finally i hav made a decision after all the time i spent tinkin whether to gave up is finally over!i finally let go of it,yaya

well,2day is another day...a new day new thoughts,well i tink dat...mayb i hav been imposin my idea on her,someting dat i hated others to do,but then still i did dat,now then i notice dat it has always been lyk i hav been tinkin bout alot of problems but then all the problem started after i tink 2 much,feelin remorseful dat i doubted her b4,and she puts up wit me...really sry dat i had doubted her...dun really know how to face her anymore...hope she see tis post,and lastly i want to say sorry...hope she will forgive me...

well,2day i wanted to write about another ting,but then i tink...mayb its not the rite time,it may affect more than juz me,as it concern other,well...tinkin bout alot of tings these day,so i' so call metally tired,really juz want to live as another person,well...want to give up,well...want to let go,well...want to get a msg frm her,well...dun want it to be becus of tis post,juz want to be becus dat...hiax i duno how to put it,sianzzzzzzz,so many ting to tink about,i...dun want her to be sad,i...dun want her to be troubled,i...dun want her to burdened by tis,i...want her...juz to be happy.Mayb i'm too young,mayb i'm juz not gd enough,mayb i'm juz not who i want me to be beside her,mayb i'm juz tinkin too much...mayb.......i really hope i could juz...duno wat i can do...to amke her happy...

2nd post of the day,duno wat to write haha,sianzzzz..mayb juz want to say,i rather u say the truth and hurt me for a while and change rather than liein to me and juz let me stay lyk tis...the status that u dun lyk

2day i went out wit the thai students again,and mayb the last time in s'pore,and i took some pic 2





well,it was a fun day,but itink its quite borin for them as we were quite unorganised,but then it is the last day,quite sad actually,wish they could stay longer,but then everyting has to end someday,juz want to wish them gd luck in everyting they do,veri sad,and i also missed my family dinner wit my grandparents,very sad....

2day i went to sentosa wit the hosts and thai students,we went to alot of places,quite fun,we went to places lyk the underwater world and took alot of pics lyk:


tis is a pic of one of the creature we see in the underwater world,if not wrong tis is a sipder someting crab,very big,huge to be in fact



tis is a ray in the underwater world,can't touch tis one,but i hav touch some of the ray at one of the place,very soft,very gd to touch



tis is a unicorn fish quite weird but,i tink should be qutie good,lol,good ifsh bad fish



if i'm not wrong tis is call a butterfly fish,very nice and attractive,should be fun to keep at home





tis is the wat we call dory fish(duno spell correct anot) after the movie finding neno,also quite nice,and small,very cute



tis the 'nemo',clown fish,also very small,very cute,hope can hav a few at home,but as it live in sea water so when u hav one at home it will be expensive to keep it
then we tok grp pic





then we went to dolphin lagoon,i got chosen as a volenteer to feel the dolphin,very gd to touch,and it also kiss me on the cheek,and i so call conduct it to sing,but i got wet till the chest level,haha,got to end here bye...

this is the pic of the thai students,the student who i'm host to is the one on the extreme rite,btw his name is ART,there are other students in the pic,well,then



well tis is a pic of si ying abd gerald,and 2 thai students,well they are quite fun to be wit.


well,other than dat matter,then i hav nth more le,well...i end tis post wit tis:sometime u see me laugh,but is that my really feelin?

well,2day the thai student has come to our sch,and i am host to one of the thai student name art,really his name is art,his eng standard quite gd,and i learnt quite alot frm them,well,actually 2day quite happy,but duno y dun really feel dat happy,mayb my problem ba,tink 2 much le,well...mayb i hav been tinkin 2 much...btw hav u ever wanted someone to actually restrict u,lyk at least once in a while....sianzz

tmr there will be thai student in our sch,and i will be one of the host,duno what will happen,well hope everyting will go well,well...nth to write ...sianz

2day,i went to sch for the speech day parade,well,2day darren and i were almost late for the trainin,luckily we took 89 then ran all the way to sch,it was tirin but i got to admit,its fun,haha.well,got hooked on a bowlin game on facebook,tryin to beat my sec 1 teacher's score,so got to go play game le,ya....and sometime its also ok to juz stay as friends...sometime it feels better

2day i'm going to do someting different,i'm goin to put pic at my blog!!


in tis pic it shows 3 of my squadmate,they are darren,matthew and yong xing



in this pic,the 4 gals are :Eileen,Yi lin,Maisarah and shirley.they are the handful of ppl in np that are not carmera shy



in this pic,there is yi ling,but alos got xin wei and jansen.u all should know who is yi lin,at least frm the last pic,then u should be able to know who is xin wei and jansen frm their names,hehe



At last,the last pic of my post,yong xing,haha,sure got ppl want to get tis pic frm me de,hahaha

after yesterday's post,i went to bed but can't sleep,so sian,then 2day mornin go sch lyk half dead,then juz woke up after a nap,2nite will be another sleepless nite again,haix,so sianz,then hav to tink bout alot of ting,haix,but then tmr got np,then got first aid course,then will get first aid badge,then also got d.grayman,then best ting bout friday,then the best ting is Cross will be out,finally!got to do other tings,so goin off...

2day very late then post cus actually can't use comp,but my mum allow me to use comp now as lyk my siblings are asleep.well,actually nth to write about my life also,quite sianz,well,ATC is coming,nid to go to camp,fun and tiring as can make friends and hav fun.but then nid to pack alot of things,and also if meet those ppl who are not easily in the party mood also quite sianz,well actually i'm not in the rite mood to write post,feelin abit down,btw,i will try to get some image into my blog ASAP...

well,2day post will be quite short,as my dad is at home,well,actually 2day is quite a lucky day,as lyk got over alot of tings quite smoothly,ok-ok,stop here le,well,sianz tmr got geog test hope will pass

yesterday was great day for me,i got a new hp!!!its the N81 8GB,cool!really lyk it,but then took quite a long time to get it.well at least i got it,but still tryin it out as it is still new to me,well,other than dat,another great ting happen to me,as i thought that mayb she will not tok to me again,she tok to me!!well,very happy dat it happen,really wish i would not need to let her say another sry to me anymore,as i think dat this word is really not nided between us,as we only say sry when we hav done someting wrong,so i dun wish to make mistake anymore.btw some of my friends commented dat my blog is a emo blog,well,mayb its becus i tink of all the happy and sad moment lyk item in a bag,we should try to use all the happy moments and keep all the sad moment away,so i write more of 'sad' moment in my blog,and also,i'm not those kind of ppl dat who will always tell my friends my problem,so sometime i would rather write it down...

last nite someting happen to me after i posted,well dun really want to tok bout it,as once again i hav misunderstood her intention,once again i hav did someting wrong...i dun really know wat to do anymore,when it is about her,i will juz do the wrong ting over and over again,dun really want it to end,but i tink mayb tis will be the last time dat i will ever hav a chance,the is spot in my blog where it wrote 'there just aint no reason...you can spend your whole life working for something just to have it taken away..there's just no reason for all this to happen...' i saw tis sentence when i was lookin for my blog skin,well,i tink dat sometime it is not dat we work on sometings to hav it taken away,but sometime,it is dat we dun really hav the rite to go on,as...we hav done too much wrong stuff,so its not rite for us to go on,and lastly...i really want to say sorry to dat gal,as most of the time i misunderstood her intention,and it made her tink dat its her fault,when its actually mine...so i really want to say...sorry!dun want her to be troubled by tis matter,and still...SORRY

well,2day i got npcc training in sch,well got the post of parade marker for the speech day,quite a easy job,expect that i can use the rite tone to shout out my command,a problem,but it will not affect me,i will get past it.well life is lyk a rollercoaster for me,it got its fun and bad parts,anyway,i still got friends around me,so its lyk a rollercoaster trip wit yur friends beside u,a lot more fun,well actually i dun really know wat i'm writting,haha,few friends commented my blog is a bit plain cus no photo,well for photo i need to change hp,got camera then surely will hav pic...sianz duno wat to do after i finish wit this post,haix...btw i edited this post,as i tink i should not some of the ting i wrote juz now,as 2day i'm not really in the correct state of mind to write bout dat stuff i took away frm tis post...mayb some other day i will post bout dat matter again...

well,posting 2day in the afternoon,well,a sianz life for me,go sch then come home,nth to write about,even msn also dun hav much ppl,siaz.....but then at least nth happen,so 2day dun hav much to write about...