last nite someting happen to me after i posted,well dun really want to tok bout it,as once again i hav misunderstood her intention,once again i hav did someting wrong...i dun really know wat to do anymore,when it is about her,i will juz do the wrong ting over and over again,dun really want it to end,but i tink mayb tis will be the last time dat i will ever hav a chance,the is spot in my blog where it wrote 'there just aint no reason...you can spend your whole life working for something just to have it taken away..there's just no reason for all this to happen...' i saw tis sentence when i was lookin for my blog skin,well,i tink dat sometime it is not dat we work on sometings to hav it taken away,but sometime,it is dat we dun really hav the rite to go on,as...we hav done too much wrong stuff,so its not rite for us to go on,and lastly...i really want to say sorry to dat gal,as most of the time i misunderstood her intention,and it made her tink dat its her fault,when its actually mine...so i really want to say...sorry!dun want her to be troubled by tis matter,and still...SORRY
2015
Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha... so much for relationship after uni, so, I guess it serves me right to have all these problems in my mind right now. so end of 2014, I am going out with this girl she is perfect, in every way. except one. she had one thing I had always been avoiding. she is popular. been hiding from this after sec school. so how now? to accept it? to leave now? After accepting the fact that, I am not gonna be in a relationship forever, these things that's happen is~ not really helping me changing my view... me right now, just wish, you could answer all my qus, scold me, even argue with me, at least dispel the doubts in me. I have accepted the fact, everyone leaves, tell me, convinces me! let me know no matter what you won't leave. dun just say... you have feelings for me, I can leave If I want... I need more than that... and tonight, definitely didn't help, knowing that yo...
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