long time nvr blog,haha,went to the Student Leader camp the last 3 days.well,dun want to write everyting,cus u hav to experience to feel it,hha...anyway,here it goes:
on the 29th,we went to sch to take the logistic and take bus to the jetty,but cus did not do well,so kena scoldin alot,haha,now tink back really learnt alot.we took the ferry to kus island first,took a few pic on the way...and took few pic on the way

<-----also a pic of me

then we stopped at St.john island first,haha,took a few pic there 2,there was a wishin well and temple,so i went to wish and pray for dat my life will move smoother,and i guess it has,haha,anyway took some pic anyway,got some bank protection methods image,haha,i'm a geog student,so took them,haha

then we reach St.island,then we chack in and hav lunch,of course got scoldin but also got help frm teachers in how to do the tings,then still got games and the there was tis visit to the beach,so took alot of pic,haha,goin to show them here :)

haha,then lyk go back then went on wit the events...then at nite,went to meetin wit shaun,kar wong,shaun and ashley,then drank coffee haha.ltr on,kar wong and shaun was very tired and went to sleep first,but then joey join us,haha,when we finished,we went to the basketball court to sit and watch the stars,its was one of the happiest nite of my life,she sat bside me,and under the nite sky,we chatted....

then the second day,then main events were the games and the camp fire,haha first time in my ife as the GOH and start the fire,but actually is only lightsticks only,but gd enough for me...haha,then lyk had a great nite,then when lights off,i went wit karwong to chatt wit xinwei and yilin,haha then we went bck to sleep,haha

then 2day i came bck lo,haha the whole camp was very bonded,then we cheered frm the camp site,on the ferry,and ltr in sch,haha everyone was very high,haha...then went to
play pool wit gerald goh,shu hao,kar wong,jiunn tat,anfd ashley.we played till 5 plus then came home.

now wat i feel and learnt,well,learnt how to run a camp,and also to control and take charge of my feelings,haha,anyway,tis camp made me grew up alot,now i tink bck i feel dat all the scoldin made me grew up,haha,and lastly,THKS TO ALL THE SEC 3 HELPIN ME AND SEC 2 FOR LISENIN TO ME,THKS FOR MAKIN ME GROW,ALOT OF THKS!!! ,write alot,so gotta stop here,bye

well,duno y,feel dat 2day is not a gd day for me,damn stress out,very f lo,so stress come home,my mum stuill nag me,so sian,sec 3 sucks,hope dun e leader anymore,damn sian,haix,sometime, wish juz can close my eyes and dun nid to open them again,but dun want to waste my life juz lyk dat,haix,guess juz hav to walk my life alone,cus someting in life,friends can only console but can't help...haix

worked quite late 2day,ut quite happy,cus got meetin in between,then she went,duno y but i juz can't pull myself away frm her,its lyk i juz know she is the one for me,haha,weird but she did tis test for me,which she did herself,and got one part say,i will hav 7 gf b4 i get married,and she was number 7!!!which means the last one,well,duno how much of its is true,but it has given me all the tings i nid to go on,i now try to be a someone,between a best friend and bf,not more not less,but of course,i want to go on to the latter on la,but then i juz want to observe her more,know her more,an know when to be there when she nid me :) suddenly knew it one nite,the relationship we had b4,the problem was dat i kept sayin i'm not gd enough,but nvr ask her about it,so tis time,i wish it will be more bout her!!!haha,now more obvious to know who i lyk,trust me,haha,gtg,tmr got meetin,haha can see her again,hha

nvr thought bein a sec 3 student would be so hard...always thought bein sec 3 i cna wear long pants,tis was the only ting i thought when i was in sec 2,nvr thought of the problems the stuff i got to go through,i got to say,some were happy,some were harsh,bein a sec 3 only sent me tinkin,can me,a teenager wit a mind of only a small kid,survive??ppl says life is harsh,but i beg for differ,i tink ppl are harsher,they are the ones who make life harsh...ppl are weird,u give then someting,they will ask for more,u dun give in,they dun lyk u,give in they will ask for more....hard to strike a balance...but to me,i feel,if others can do it,so can i...haix,feelin tensed up rite now,wantin to bang my head on the wall,multiple times!!!but i know i will hurt myself tis way,and the problems in my life is not worth for me to hurt myself....i only hav to say,my work life and my personal life is really stress and confusin....i guess tis is the price to pay in order to grow up....juz got one ting to say bout it...IT REALLY SUCKS!!!!!

2day,workin thw WHOLE day,now juz finish it,well,now i know,changin frm a friend to bf is hard,but changin frmbf to frined is even harder,experience it rite now,she cut her hair recently,duno wat others tink but i kinda lyk it..anyway,if i say,i hav lost all feelin for her,i'm liein,its hard to forget a gal lyk her,duno y every litle movement,sound or action she make juz catch my attention,duno y,find it hard to forget,but then sometime,i can't get wat she is hintin,so duno if i want to lyk go for her again...well,everyting after the SL first...workin wit her has been a great experience,serious and fun...haha,anyway,eyes closin soon...*yawn*...a funny fact,tis SL ting is more stressful than my EOY,haha

well,i feel lyk being a boyfriend,make a guy tink dat he is always not doin gd enough,so it will start a gap to appear,i feel tis way,duno wat others tink,feelin dat,difference really set ppl apart,it will cause misunderstanding easily,haix,unfortunately found tis out only till now,but till now still cannot get rid of this bad habit,haha,well,anyway,juz hope everyone gd luck in getin the heart of the one they lyk,gd luck,and hope can still be friends...wantin to msg her,but juz afraid lyk misunderstand her and lyk make her unhappy over someting she nid not be sad about...duno if she will read tis,anyway,now juz happily gettin past my life,haha

haha,these few day nvr really pst cus lyk got hooked on a game my bro download,is a games consistin of cars,doi mission and earnin money to get better parts to make yur car faster,all the tings dat make me hooked on it,haha,now its rainin,used to tink rain as a symbol of sadness,but now,its juz someting to make to more calmm,relaxed...love the rain since young,love it...btw notice,now its lyk love is in the air,everyone is fallin in love,well,i hav been there but can't really say done dat,cus didn't really took the chance to do anyting,thought too much in the end nvr do,haha,but its all in the past,haha,now its juz me and my friends,spentin my time slackin and tokin and of course,playin,haha,gtg..used 3 hr 2day to do SL ting,my back now achin,haha,well,learn to look life on the brighter side not juz on the bad side of it,haha,friends ROX!!!!

i hav enough of runin away,i will juz stand here,do wat come to mind first...anyway,as for 2day,i went to hillgrove sec wit all the sec 3 SLs,very fun,learn 3 folk dance frm them,very fun,joke around wit shaun and the others,then lyk teach a little cheers to the SLs,very fun day,then lyk get hme,now getin prepare for tmr,quite a fun day...hopin dat tmr will be better!!

not goin to say more,juz want to say,i did not cherish the chance when i had it,so i guess tis time...it really is gd bye,but i juz want to say hope she find someone else who can really know wat she feelin,care for her...well,hopre we are still friends,mayb not now,but mayb as time goes by,can slowly become friends...anyway,found out dat,actually i hav some great friends beside me all the time,now i got more time for friends...hope time heal everyting...hope can be friends again

I know she's fine. And on addition to that, things are gonna be better for me. I know that for sure. Living in this last chapter is probably the best time for me to think what i used to held on tightly to; the beliefs, the friends and the love. I'm also growing on the other side, knowing that things have changed and so must i. I'm totally dead over i know that. I've given up on her. Love made me grow stronger. I've also learnt to face the problems in my life without hesitation. I know that by ignoring will also be the best solution for us. We need to cool down before things get out of hand. I'm not gonna be addicted to her anymore. I'm gonna forget her and move on my life.

2day is lyk quite a different life for me,cus lyk did tings i nvr did in my normal sch days...had oral 2day,different style,first english then chinese,dun really in the mood but still did the best i...duno how she did....anyway,when to shaun hse 2day to catch some great shows,so thks shaun....then went to hand up my form for my part time...living in the last few chapters of my life in sec 3,so may it be the end,may it be a start,i now tryin to grow up,cus i hav a really inmature mind,got to start growin up soon...not only tink bout the problems in my life,but tryin to solve it is wat i will try to attempt to do,cus its lyk how i feel i should grow up,instead of runnin,i will face the problem...

well,nvr post yesterday cus lyk go out the whole day,so 2day hav 2 post,the one now is for yesterday.morning went to white sand for breakfast then make bank account which turn out to hav one,then my mum let me and my bro go arcade,so lyk play until no money,went sch to see can find the calculator my teacher lend me,sadly dun hav,but dats not the sadest ting dat happen dat day,then went to kar wong hse to slack then play a while basketball then went for job interview,then go bck kar wong hse there wit darren to play basketball,then lyk cus shaun called to see if we want to go andy hse for hari raya celebration,then lyk so we say yes...then me,kar wong darren and shaun met up and went to his hse.met 2 other gal there.then we ate play and tok there....then i left wit one of the gals,which is my gf(alot of ppl duno i hav onebut...read on)then we walked and the whole way i wanted to hold her han,but did not,then lyk on the bus i wanted to do so,but she kept playin wit her hair,then she hook my arm,i was lyk very happy,but cus we dun really tok,so lyk still did not tok on the way to her hme,then lyk when reach her bus stop,held her hand,was quite happy actually,but then she msg me dat she got hme and said some other ting,then we msg on,and finally can say brk up ba,so lyk now feel quite down...i juz want to tell her tis:i'm sry i did not did my part as bf,i'm sry for givin u such a bad experience,i juz sry for not givin u wat u deserve,juz sry i took the first step in the past...

well,EOY is tmr,haix,so fast...well,hope,nono must make sure i pass,dun want to stay back 1 yr,waste my time and embarrassing,wish everyone pass!!!work hard as it will repay u in time....now i try to put EOY in first place and nth else....after tis must go chiong and study le...