haha,sry ppl,didn't post so much tis few days,cus was tinkin of ways to save someting which i hav destroyed wit my own hands....(suddenly want to say tis,haha,duno y) to me love is lyk glass,once it is broken,even though its glued back,u can still the cracks...but everyting has its' gd and bad,if u see it as a design to the glass,it will make the glass look nicer,and better than b4....but dat does not mean,u can juz glue it back everytime u break it,everytime u break it,it will be harder to glue it back...then till one day,u can no longer glue it back....only then will u start to regret,y didn't i taken care of it at the first place??in life its easy to regret,hard to make amendment,even if u made amendment,it is oso up to the other person to see if they want to forgive u anot,even if forgiven....can the 2 parties be the same as b4 even though one of them had 'broke the glass'?it takes a long time for glass to melt and made into someting,unlike glass,ppl meet each other when fate comes by,someone may juz pass by u once,but dat person may change yur life....lyk someone u love,they may juz be beside of u,but if u dun take the chance to say u love them,someday,u may really NEVER hav the chance anymore...then it will be lyk wat one of my friend's private msg say'if u yean for someting,Pursue it,And when u got it,Maintain it,And it will be forever'...it tink the 2 main word in it is 'pursue' and 'maintain'...y i say dat?cus when u love someone,no one know,unless u show it though yur action or speech,then hav the courage to tok to dat person,get to know her,and hopefully understand her(which is very important for wat i know)then hav the courage to tell her,if she love u 2,then congrats...nxt maintain,its will only hurt someone when u hav a relationship which u dun maintain,bout tis maintain tingy,i fail at it,i really really suck at it,for wat i know,maintain require havin to spend time 2gether,no matter wat place,it will be a fun day....then trustin each other,i remembered tis frm my pal,jason,he siad once,there is no use in havn a relatonship where there is not trust,tis i really believe in it,dun keep sayin i trust him/her,i trust him/her over and over again,do really ask yurself,do i really trust i trust him/her?till one day u really know u do,the congrats,i'm sad to say,i been through it....when there is trust,alot of problems are solved...then if u understand yur one u love,then u will know when to say the rite tings,when to lyk do the rite ting...hmm..duno y i'm sayin all tis now,but hope it will be help to anyone.........and lastly,juz want to say...hope i can spend the last few minutes of tis yr wit u.....

can u ever forgive a person who has hurt u more than once?i duno....but i do know dat....nvr do tings u know u will regret....cus if u do,u will really regret it.sometings in life,someting can't be solved with someting as simple as a sorry,panic can make someone do tings dat irritate others,i know cus juz done it not long ago,sometimes,u juz nid to wait...for tings to cool down,b4 u attempt to solve it....cryin,shoutin,punchin the wall and etc do help make u feel better,but hav u ever thought dat u may make ppl who care for u feel the pain instead...i made a promise to someone,dat i would nvr punch the wall,and till 2day,i still live up t dat promise,cus i tink,promises are easily broken,some can be understand,but some are juz cause of pure irresponsible....so tis is one of the promise i would nvr break,cus no reason would allow me to break it....waitin for the judgment...which i will accept no matter wat it is...as i...deserve it...

wants,wish,dream,or wat u want to say it is,haha,know juz 2day...cannot come true...how naive,haha,relationship,haha,me,haha,who am i kiddin...inexperienced,lack common sense,lack of the ability to see a chance when it present itself....happy when i'm beside her....but then i duno if it the same for her...mayb it juz dat she dun show her feelin but then i should know,I SHOULD KNOW!!but the ting is i dun,sometime i get it,sometimes i dun....affected,i told her not to get affected by wat i said,but i'm the one who in turn get affected,mayb tis iis y she dun lyk to tell me stuff...give up is not the ting i would do,if i wanted to,i would hav done it long ago,haha,tis is lyk a monthly stuff,writn tings dat claim the name of emo blog,mayb nid someone to ensure i'm doin it correctly?dun really want to face reality,so small fonts,haha...ha...ha....the end?

didn't post much yesterday,haha,only one sentence,haha,cool rite,learn frm my friend,matthew,he post only 3 sentence,haha....woah,so fast christmas comin,means startin count down to sch le,sian sia,means nid to start homework,haha,ya i haven start my works yet,enjoyin my holiday,spent my nov holiday doin SL tings,haha....christmas,hmm...tink tis is the best christmas i'm goin to spend ba,haha,reason is classified as secret,haha,love my life now,haha,reason is obvious,i grew up,i know how to handle some stuff better than last time ba,haha.......sian,cmp still got infected file,haix :)

haha,my comp got virus,sian sia,got anyway can help de??pls help,thks,haha...very sian arh

haha,stayed at hme the whole day,haha,slp till 4 cus tok on the phone till 6 in the mornin,dun tink 2 much,was on the phine wit jason,tok bout lots,haha,then woke up,brush teeth,haha,then lyk watch tv,watch 'the cat in the hat',very funny lo,haha,then watch other show lyk icarly and life wit derick,oso quite funny haha.



been a long time....since i hav been near
been a long time....since i call u dar
been a long time...since i say i love you
been a long time....since i was did not hav to tink so much
been a long time...since i was so close
been a long time...since we are happy...

haha,went out 2day to sch for meetin,SL meeting,haha very de fun,practise break dancin after the meetin...me andy shaun jason,haha,found dat andy was very gd!!more practise,tink he can be a great break dancer,haha,then went to chit chat wit jason yi lin and xin wei,the same tok cock grp haha...


so long,so long since...i told her i love her
the feelin...is lyk juz in there...no stopin
but for now...tink move into the shadow
movin slowly...understandin slowly but confirm...

2day when to work in the morning,8 to 2,haha,was fun,did a new station 2day,ya,packin the burgers,haha,very fun...then went to town wit jason and shaun,very guai worh,nvr look at gals,haha except 2 or 3 la,the rest,haix,dun look better...but they 2 say we at wrong place to look for gals,but a great place to buy stuff,haha,depends la,not really in the mood,now juz look and forget,haha,juz thought of one gals all the way,told shaun,haha,he lyk say can stop ma,haha,his face was funny...jason bought a new clothe,haha,fun day,then ended it wit break dancin practice,haha,practised handstand almost hurt my wrist,haha,but fun,oso did six step,haha nice


new day,learnin to let go,but really dun want...but then understandin is one very big ting for me,nvr nided to understand ppl dat much in the past,now i nid to get into someone life and someone nid to get in mine,so till a extent,a bit scared,but one more tings,in relationship,its both ppl sharing each others life,changin is a big part of it,but once hoped,she would come into mine...

haha,tis post is for ytd,went for workin ytd,haha,worked 5 to 9.then lyk got darren,shaun,francis and,then lyk jason came to look for us,then lyk me shaun darren and shaun went to practice break dancing,haha,ya i know,must be shocked rite,break dancin me dun click,haha,still tryin,haha got to try ma

she juz there,always there.it hard to forgive myself,but harder to forget bout her...being friends,ya rite,who can do dat,tryin my best to do so...

haha,2day was actually a bad day to start wit,but then end up not bad,mayb goin bck is the best ting dat i should and could do,cus for the me now,is lyk the song,king of wishful thinkin,haha,all i tinks are lyk childish tinkin,haha,sry if i hav hurt u,didn't want to but still did it...duno if can be friends in the end,do hope so la,haha,leavin memories of yurself is the best ting to do,cus at least ppl can tink of u....btw,hav u ever thought where will u go after u die...tis was a question a friend ask me one day...really sent me tinkin...for me i tink hell ba,haha,did alot of bad tings,and only eat meat,haha,who know wat goin to happen the nxt moment??haha,dun worry ppl,suicide has nvr came to my mind,life is still long,i still hav alot of gd deeds to do to redeem myself :) and to her,i give her my blessin,hope a guy whos better could lyk come or someting,but PLS AFTER 'O' LVL,we all nid to study,includin me,a math lyk shit le :,( haha gtg bb

long time nvr post le,haix,facin a difficult decision now,hmm...should write all the ting i dun lyk on my blog or should i keep it to myself??hmm....friends,can u all help me??tell me in my tag box.well,change my front to a larger one le,if still cannot oso must tell me...thks

as the world goes round,time passes.....as time passes,tings changes......so its either u adjust to the changes or u move away...for me,life hav really been different since tis yr mid yr and esp. end of yr,ppl around me hav changed alot but one of the change,i feel dat i'm responsible for.ppl change frm time to time,frm bad to gd and oso gd to bad....changng agan in a short while is impossible,but then there are people who can do it,as long as its worth it,i hav changed a few times(if u notice it),when i change,i got to mix wit a new grp of friends,and for now i feel dat the change is gd,but then i decide to change again,as its someting i want to do to save someting.....all i can say,enjoyment has ended,now its time for one to taste their own fruits of their labour,whether its sweet,whethers its sour,one must finish it all,b4 sowin the seeds again....dun worry if u dun,cus i tink only some ppl can understand wat i want to say,btw change can only be detected by others,but rarely by ownself,so if u hav changed,most likly....u hav,but then,u got to see whether if u hav benefit frm tis change,if u hav then congrats,but then for every change,u hav to lose someting u cherish alot,then i guess the change has failed....ha nth more to sayi'm a straight-forward guy,so lyk most of the time,dun expect me to do tings lyk running round the bushes,i juz go into the ting...it hurts,but its the truth....

haha,long time nvr blog le,erm...first ting i want to say is sry to my friend,kar wong,for givin him the wrong direction.hope he forgive me.hmm...dats lyk the main ting lo...haha...found a grp of ppl wit the same tinkin,haha,hope can start planin soon,haha,when got stuff..will write...haha

ok,juz now dat post was a fake,well,now dat i hav reach my goal of know wats botherin hermi finally get to know wat botherin her,i want to say,all the tings i said are fake,its lyk someting to get u to speak up,if lyk i hurt u,i'm sry,i'm willin to make it up to u in any way available,juz dun be angry wit me,cus if i juz ask u,u won't tell,so now,let me know ...i want to be there 4 u

haha,a meaningful day for me 2day,haha,day of singlehood,now,life is juz bout me and me alone,and friends of course,haha,but i will still ask qus bout relationship,cus it benefit me alot,haha,well,since i'm single,well,its only rite to look at other gals,and if can find another gf,but hard la,given my 'style' hard la,haha,well,welcoem guys and gals to ask me out,haha,but may hav work.haha

haha,tinkin alot for the past few days,haha,well,when i'm emo,i tink i bcome a dangerous person,haha,tink all sort of dumb stuff,haha,but actully,i dun dare to do all those,nxt time u see me,ask me y,i will tell u,haha,well,actually i tink tis few wk,i 'm really gettin to know her more thn those time whn we are together,she tink she worry for me won't help me wit my problem,but it does,even the fact she ask if there is anyting botherin me,i feel better already...her presense help me in doin ting better,cus i feel lyk happier wit her around...i lyk to look at her when i hav the chance,cus lyk i get tis happines when i look at her,duno y,but feel happy,haha,hope so is she,haha

not goin to tok bout my day 2day,kinda boring,so goin to write bout someting i was tinkin of 2day....name,a term for someone,but then sometime,we dun really call others by their really name,we call them other names or special term...i hav some,but then there was tis one which i was really fond of,it was her who call me dat special term,meant alot to me,mayb cus it was my first relationship,and first time she really meant it when she used it,i used the same term for her 2,but as time went by,relationship got strain,found dat only i usin it,then till the day dat the relationship was finish,it all ended there,got bck as friends,got to know dat she dun really use the term for any guys,but mayb i should forget it s it won't hurt so much,cus she used it for other guys,for fun or for real,i duno,but then one ting for sure,i dun want to spoilt her fun,spoilt her fun once durin the relationship,but different matter,but similar in ways..............tinkin of her all the time,remembered wat she said frm last time till now,but then now,juz duno,if i'm juz a friend or someting higher in status,lol,but then feel i'm stuck halfway.............duno if i should post tis out,so goin to leave it out for one day,tmr nite,i juz goin to transfer it to my unpublish posts........another matter,actually,i feel,i'm should really leave her,cus i'm not really someone who anyone would want asa bf,i'm not handsome,quite poor,attitude problem,dun communicate well,may forgot to to gf when in conversation wit friends,easily jealous,control freak......thought of juz leave the world,but feel it is unfair for my parents,and i should not control how long i live,but somtime,i wish,there is a corner in tis world i can escape to,but it juz seems,dat its impossible....so strugglin to stay alive,but its a war i must fight,changin myself is one ting,but then am i juz changin the outside of me rather then the inside,i duno,mayb only she can tell,life is not a stage,but a chore

did not blog for these few day,cus got alot of SL work to do,so sian,haix,thought it would be a great tingto join after th camp,but haix...yesterday went to prom nite to help out,it turn out to be a grest nite for me,but dun want to write bout it,hehe....haix,havin alot of stress nowaday,missed 2day AGM meetin cus of work,but then its not lyk i want to one rite,kena scolded cus i promised i would go,know its my fault,but then its not lyk i want one rite...haix,then got other tings in mind 2,haha,got improvement in some stuff in life,but duno,if it is the real me,lyk it but..duno,i'm happy bout the change but duno if it is still me,kinda caught in a two way street,duno how she feels or lyk,should it be the left or rite turn....i really duno....but still happy bout the state we are in now ;)

erm...2day i tnk i goin to spend time here,on my blog,haha,2day duno if it a negative day,the whole time i was tinkin negetivly durin sch time,haha,no mood study....haha,sry but not my usual self till a extent,i'm currently returnin to my young boy tinkin,childish,haha....life hav really teach me alot of stuff,sometime in life,we are told to remember the tings we learn in life,bt i learnt someting frm the tings i been throught,sometme dun remember everyting someone or a grp say...then practice selective hearin,listenin and rememberin together,haha,mayb ts will help :)

haha,2day went to sch to bring the coral pri student around,quite borin,think they same for them,haha,then 2day went to shirley birthday,very excitin,first time spend a birthday tis way,haha,gtg bb

hi everyone,my post after korea trip,not goin to uploaad more pic,cus upload until sian,haha,had a fun trip,lear alot of ting,now its back to singapore,and the leader stuf,study stuff is bck,so try my best to cope la,haha....really miss her durin the trip,haha,now is better than friends not as gd as bf,haha,tink its gd,at least we will get to know others better also before we go any farther??haha,anyway,juz glad at least i'm at this stage,haha...ok,signin off

these are some of the pic taken will ost some more tmr,cus 2day very tired,juz came bck singapore