well,wanted to write a story,but write util no idea cus rushin for time,well,duno y got a few thought in my mind,hmm...duno how tis relationship will turn out,duno y tis question came to my mind...well,now my life is colourful and fun...but i'm afraid dat one day it will turn black and everyting i see is filled wit despair and sadness,and i know it will be tough to walk out of it,but then dat is only the negative outcome,well,my life can also turn for the better and we can lyk get together better...well i tink all depends on us...haha,y tink negative when u can tink positive?haha...well,i juz got to say,sometime when uu do someting,tink b4 u do,dun let emotion affect u,cus if u do,the action u did may hav the opposite outcome frm wat u expected...haha,learnin how to do dat rite now,haha

nth much to say,EOY comin,so not usin comp often,well,sometime i dun use ppl name in my blog cus i want to at least give u some face,i'm juz expressin my view,well,if others are unhappy wit it,u can juz tell me straight in my face,and trust me,if u tink i'm pushin uto the limit,sry but i haven even startd...if u can't take the heat,then dun start the fire

well,2day dun really hav much to juz to say,juz dat i may not be able to use the comp till EOY is finish...really duno wat to say,feel dat i'm lyk very selfish,haix,i feel,as a guy i should be more open mined in the sense i should not be so jealous over small ting,but then,other guys i feel ok lei,but tis guyis lyk duno how to behave...sian sia,kinda of lyk gave her the 'black' face,actually everyting went well,till he shows up....haix,duno i will call her ma,mayb i see.mayb wait for her call,or i call her...leave it to fate...

not goin to write alot 2day,well,juz goin to say,sometime i dun lyk to take a job of high rankin cus i scare the power will get to me,but then i can't run away forever,so i tink i'm goin to use tis SL ting to get over tis problem,ya!!i can do it!!!...ppl change frm time to time,the main ting is,whether the change is for gd or bad,if its bad,how can u change back to a gd self,or to a better person...haix got a flu tis few day,kept sneezin sianz

long time nvr post le,cus no mood,ok la,not say in bad mood,but then is in the 'no-mood-to-post' mood,haha 2day juz want someting..actually nth,haha,want sch as usual,then after sch got SL meetin,then stay in sch a while to chat wit friends..fun,very fun...but then got someting happen juz dun lyk it lo...mayb will tok to someone ltr..hehe,well got sometings i want to write down first,'dun start to cherish someting only when its gone,it will be 2 late,cherish it when u hav it'...nxt i want to say,'know where u stand',(the followin part may get scary) which means know which position u are in,as a friend,as a gd friend,and only do the tings u know u should do,dun cross the limit cus everyone has a limit,cross my and u will know what happn...be it gd be it bad,someting when u cross my line on some matter i can end it wit a joke,but i say tis first,soem matter's limit are nvr meant to be crossed,cus it may cause the friendship we onc hav,so i hav warn everyone bout tis,some ppl are are gettin t the limit of matter i can't end wit a joke,u may know who u are,i won't say much,but then i hav told everyone wat a person i am,i cn be gd and i can be bad,dun ever mess wit the bad side of me...

juz change blog skin,haha,a ok day for me except dat i fail my eng!!!well,hav to work hard tis term,well,any duno wat to do ltr,mayb call her up to chat,duno will bother her anot,well try ltr haha,btw sec 2 cadet hav promoted!!Frm LCP to CPL,very happy for them cus i'm in charge of them haha...gtg,if got comment bout the skin must tell me,cus nid some comments

well,not goin to write alot for 2day,dun really hav time to wrie alot,but then everyting is already le,it turn out dat wejuz nided to tok and we tok about tis matter last nite,and got over it :) hehe gtg post more tmr

actually not in the mood to post 2day,alot of ting happen,i admit i did wrong by ignoring her,but then i feel dat actually i juz wanted to get her attention...mayb lyk i juz did it the wrong way...mayb i'm lyk a small kid juz want attention but haix...wanted to get her on9 to to bout tis,but then her friend told me,she want me to know dat she not goin on9 tis few days,i guess she must be busy,but can't help to tink,can't she tell me herself??well,dun really know wat to do anymore,want to dun msg her,but feel dat will hav make tings worst...dun really know wat to do anymore...tink i juz run away frm the problem for now,cus EOY comin,then lyk eng also fail le...now only can share problem wit friends instead wit her...didn't slp well last mite cus tinkin too much le,really tired of all these tings...dun want to break up wit her,but really duno wat to do,cus i tink we should communicate more,but now lyk tis...duno wat to do...she used to say i dun understand her,but i really want to ask her how much does she understand bout me...

well,not really in the mood to post rite now,tokin to a friend but my problems...haix,sometime really tink until sian...well,juz want to say i feel lyk i hav been deprived of the attention i should hav,if u are readin tis post rite now,u understand then ok,dun undestand also nvm...

2day was a gd and bad day for me,gd dat i hav gotten 21/25 for my chem,haha,finally passed,but then i was told by my eng teacher that i got 2 work nvr finish,then 2day in sch no time finish so gettin...haix,2day lyk kena flu bug lyk dat,kept sneezing thw whole day,was kind of uncomfortable for me,haix,hope will get more C&C,if dun understand then nvm,well nvr post my second post for yesterday,cus not really in the mood,cus lyk i told u to change yur URL was cus lyk it was a opinion,cus got friend gotten problem lyk dat b4,so it was lyk an advice...mayb nxt time,i should help her ask other for advice instead of givin her my own,mayb will work out better...haix,so its my fault again,i can't seem to get my intention through,i hav a intention of helpin u,but most of the time..it will juz go wrong,haix,duno wat to do,saw someting 2day but...by writin down wat i saw make me feel lyk i'm turnin into selfish person,cus lyk mayb she hav done someting bout it,but i juz duno...i really understand more bout her,cus i also tink i dun really know her feelin...tink after a while mayb go take medicine and go slp,cus duno y tis few day can't slp properly,haix,EOY exam is comin soon,got to revise also,well dun really know wat i should do to be someone who know her but won't hurt her...tinkin...

well,goin to post once now,then post again ltr,well,didn't reall hav time to chat wit her,i'm really sry bout dat,tink i hav ignored her for sometime,well,cus got family matters,hope she understand,well,hav plan to do my wrk and for end of yr already,so see how tings goes for now,hope can meet her MSN and she mayb can reply to my msg,if possible lo,but ok la,already adjust to dat she may not reply,but dun blame her cus she nid to restrict her msg tis mth...haix,see how ting goes...

didn't blog these 2 day cus lyk got family event nid to go,well,ok la,learn someting frm there 2...didn't msg her much tis wk cus she can't chat much...tink about alot of stuff tis wk...for the first time in my life havin the problem of mayb nidin to lyk retain in sec 3 express,sian lo,well if lyk dat,then lyk to me my life is finish liao lo,sian lo...haix about her,also got tings dat i nid to ask her,but these few day quite busy so no chance to tok to her,thought 2day can but told her i can't on9 2day,then now can but 2 late le la,so dun really want her to on9 2,want her to get some rest better,tmr got E-math test,gd luck to everyone!!kind of sad tis wk,cus of hte family matter,duno if got a part is bcus of the ting i nid to ask her anot...haix...sometime being a teenager sucks,sch life is really pressure,everyday give work then still want us to lyk finish,some ppl can la,but then...haix i startin to blame others instead of myself,haix...got to buck up...workinhard lately so i will try not to go out or stay in sch if not nid...sian,really dun want to stay back

well,i know there is someting dat happen in my blog,its quite shockin to me,well,first i want to say,mayb dat tag is sabo by someone,cus lyk we nvr know,well,anyway,if dat tag is really tag by someone else,well,hope dat person will own up,but then i dun lyk her,dats for sure,lyk another person :) well,enough of dat,bout me le,well,2day went sch for public speakin course,then after dat went to play basketball wit some of my friends,well,of course got her la,then got play basketball,wit other ppl lyk chen jun,karwong and kevin...they are quite gd in basketball,some of the trick they do,i can't really do,well then after dat the whole grp went to mini mart jansen hse,after dat only left 2 person,me and her,so lyk we walk slowly to the opposite direction,then the 2 person left for rivervale mall,then only left me and her,haha,happy dat way but hen as we walk i found dat,we are nt really tokin,but then i walk her home,and durin dat time got tok,haha,wanted to hold her hand,but dat tink dat wearin sch uniform and do someting lyk dat not gd,haha,wasted rite?well,i tink there is chance nxt time,well,but then really,really wasted the chance...haha,btw if u know who she is and what happen between us then keep it to yurself,dun tell others,and if u duno then dun bother to ask,cus ppl who know,wont tell!!haha

well,quite a fun day 2day,go sch take my SS retest,thenafter datgot A-math lesson,then duno y suddenly got is interest in doin the work,haha,well then got stay forthe student leader stuff,after dat a large grp of us stay back to pay,well after dat got a very fun ting happen cus she is goin to PP wit a grp of friend frm juz now dat big grp,then she took bus 3,samebus as me,then the grp of them and the ppl who takin bus 3 together lyk know we are lyk together le,so they cal us to sit together,actually at first i wanted to sit wit her,but she sat on he outer sit so i can't juz move to the inner seat so i move to another seat,the they lyk call her to move in,so shemoved in and i sat beside her,the feelin quite gd :) well then she told me lyk she very pai sei,i also quite pai sei,but then still lyk happy dat it happened :) got someting frm her 2day,hehe dun tell u all wat it is :)

well,the holiday hav started,but,hiax dun tink is holidays,juz tink it juz sch days wit shorter study hrs only,but ok la,but quite fun,well,nxt wk exam wk so tis wk goin to study hard,cus end of yr le,so goin to give it all my best well,tings are goin ok for us,make her angry sometime,but she will forgive me,hehe,very kindhearted,hehe,got to go,must study study study,tmr got test!!!GOGOGO!!!