Guess,i finally got my answer ytd nite,it was wat i always wanted,bt y am i nt feelin happy rite nw?mayb cus the outcome got affected durin the process and now,it finally got to the stage where i had always feared it will come to.tok to YZ ytd,must really say thks to him,made me realise a lot of stuff,found out,dat i had became someone who always put the blame on others,where it has always been me who is always makin the mistake....she was the reason for me wantin to change,however it was me who took the wrong steps....seems lyk wat she said,frenz treat her better than i do....thn y do i even want to know where i stand,whn i even qualify as a frenz...all of a sudden,remembered all the stupid tings which i did and said,thus which conclude someting,guess,the problem between our relationship,has always been me....so now,its only give up or change,guess the choice it there.....
2015
Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha... so much for relationship after uni, so, I guess it serves me right to have all these problems in my mind right now. so end of 2014, I am going out with this girl she is perfect, in every way. except one. she had one thing I had always been avoiding. she is popular. been hiding from this after sec school. so how now? to accept it? to leave now? After accepting the fact that, I am not gonna be in a relationship forever, these things that's happen is~ not really helping me changing my view... me right now, just wish, you could answer all my qus, scold me, even argue with me, at least dispel the doubts in me. I have accepted the fact, everyone leaves, tell me, convinces me! let me know no matter what you won't leave. dun just say... you have feelings for me, I can leave If I want... I need more than that... and tonight, definitely didn't help, knowing that yo...
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