first i hav to say gd job to those who are involved n the speech day,2day is a very job done,there was a little problem here and there,but stil a good job done!well,dat was for the parade 2day,well as for me,2day i am faced wit a problem,well the gal i lyk says dat she dun really know me,but its fine,cus i tink i'm those kind of ppl friends duno really know bout me,not dat they are not true friends but its dat...mayb its juz dat i dun really hav a fixed mind,cus lyk i mayb tinkin bout someting now,nxt moment i mayb tinkin of other stuff...but i dun juz lyk a gal now then lyk other gal very fast!but hen i juz dun hav a fixed mind...many ppl tink i am talkative cus i'm juz talkative,actually if i dun tok,my mind will start to wander,since young,if my mind start to wonder mostly it will be about the matter I'm doin now will hav a very negative outcome,when i say negative,it is very negative!well so i radthe speak or be wit my frieds,or else wll wander,haix,duno how i can help her to understand me when sometime even i dun understand myself...dun really want to lose her as i hav lose her a few time and the feelin is unbearable...duno if ppl of my age should say tis kind of ting anot...
2015
Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha... so much for relationship after uni, so, I guess it serves me right to have all these problems in my mind right now. so end of 2014, I am going out with this girl she is perfect, in every way. except one. she had one thing I had always been avoiding. she is popular. been hiding from this after sec school. so how now? to accept it? to leave now? After accepting the fact that, I am not gonna be in a relationship forever, these things that's happen is~ not really helping me changing my view... me right now, just wish, you could answer all my qus, scold me, even argue with me, at least dispel the doubts in me. I have accepted the fact, everyone leaves, tell me, convinces me! let me know no matter what you won't leave. dun just say... you have feelings for me, I can leave If I want... I need more than that... and tonight, definitely didn't help, knowing that yo...
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