well,2day is wat i say a 'dun lyk wat i'm doin' day...cus lyk i feel 2day i hav not done much for the preparation for the concert tmr...well also alot of other stuff,feel dat i'm not doin enough,feel dat i'm not tryin hard for sometings in life,feel dat i juz dun hav the courage even to even do someting for the one i love...are ashamed of myself..for being such a coward in life,lyk if i did someting wrong,i now hav the courage to own up,but duno y i juz can't go on wit a conversation for long...i still remember once i got the chance to tok to her alone,but dat time she still duno i lyk her,well,till now still lyk dat feelin...hope i will get another chance again...but then tis time not juz as a friend...well,tink she is too tired 2day...really hope she share wit me if there is someting botherin her...duno wat to do!!!!well,actually i tink i should juz go for it and dun let wat others say affect me..i tink i shall do juz dat!!
2015
Never thought that after so long,I still need this place to rant out stuff, haha... so much for relationship after uni, so, I guess it serves me right to have all these problems in my mind right now. so end of 2014, I am going out with this girl she is perfect, in every way. except one. she had one thing I had always been avoiding. she is popular. been hiding from this after sec school. so how now? to accept it? to leave now? After accepting the fact that, I am not gonna be in a relationship forever, these things that's happen is~ not really helping me changing my view... me right now, just wish, you could answer all my qus, scold me, even argue with me, at least dispel the doubts in me. I have accepted the fact, everyone leaves, tell me, convinces me! let me know no matter what you won't leave. dun just say... you have feelings for me, I can leave If I want... I need more than that... and tonight, definitely didn't help, knowing that yo...
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